Facing Fear

Facing Fear

Fear is a funny thing. It can either motivate us or prevent us from moving forward. It can be the driving force behind achieving our goals or it can be the road block that keeps us from trying. What ever roll it plays in our life, it is a constant reminder of either who we are afraid to be, or what we are afraid to do. It lives all around us, reminding us that we are not good enough, and we don’t deserve to be who we want to be. Fear can push us to be good parents, friends, confidants and lovers but then remind us that we’re not any of those. Fear can hinder us from going after our dreams, and tell us that there is no point.

How does fear work within your life? 

What is the fear that is holding you back? What keeps you from acknowledging how great you really are? What is keeping you from loving the life you are living? What is preventing you from moving forward? The other evening after conferring with a good friend I realized It’s time to recognize what my fears are and label them. I need to dig into the reasons that lay beneath those fears, then it’s time to take them head on. It’s time to face my fears: To remove the block that keeps me stuck, and to find a new motivation that emanates a more positive purpose.

Are you ready?

I have fears that are both motivating and debilitating. Fears that keep me running forward; always looking back, and fears that hinder me from taking the next step. It’s exhausting when your fears come at you from different directions. My fears dictate my direction; they tell me when to go, and they tell me when to stop. Today, I am facing those fears and I am taking over. Today, I will decide when I move forward and when I stop.

Will you do the same?

So, what is your fear? What is holding you back or preventing you from enjoying the process? You need to understand what your fear is. Don’t know exactly? How do you acknowledge your fear if you’re not entirely sure what the fear is? If you are interested in understanding what those fears are, and want to learn more about taking on those fears, I recommend you speak with someone honestly. Facing your fears alone can be terrifying but with the help of friends it becomes that much easier. Sometimes saying them aloud is the biggest step in conquering them.

Once you start to understand the basis of your fears, and what it is that’s holding you back, the next step is to get comfortable with them. In order to take on our fears, we have to be able to sit in a room with them. That means accepting our fears instead of denying them. Allowing ourselves to be honest with the idea that we are scared of something that is keeping us from living the life that we dream of. It’s okay to be afraid. It’s okay to feel a little anxious about what the future holds for us; it’s not okay to allow our fears to keep us stuck in the past.

Figure out where the fear stems from and why? What causes you to have anxiety about certain aspects of your goals? Why are you so afraid to fail? What is driving you so much that you are in a hurry to get to the finish line? Is it past occurrences that is keeping you from your future? Are you afraid to relive a tragedy? Are you exaggerating a worse case scenario? Sometimes, when we pull our fear up, and tear out the roots, we gain a little more understanding of ourselves. We can see our fears more clearly, and we acquire the courage to take them on. 

Face Your Fear

Now that we have identified our fears, and we understand the cause of them, it’s time to gear up and face them. It’s time to take them with us as we get going on our goals. We’re not going to ignore them, or pretend they don’t exist. We’re going to take a deep breath, and we’re going to say, “Sorry fear, you are not going to stop me.” We are going to put one foot forward, and then the next, and we are going to keep moving.

Fear is going to try to tell us that we can’t, or we shouldn’t. Maybe fear is keeping you on your toes, in agony as you run from it, hoping not to repeat history. It’s time to stop running. It’s time to say, “I see you, and you are not going to dictate how my story goes.” It’s time to take over. You are the author; you create the scenes, you write the plot, and you do it regardless of how afraid you are. 

Stop making excuses; stop waiting for it to pass, or get better. If you are scared now, you are going to be scared tomorrow? Your fears will not weaken unless you face them. Go after your goals anyway, and that one fear will weaken. The more you take on your fears, the easier it will be for you to face new ones. This is what the journey is all about, isn’t it? Having a story to tell, and taking on challenges. What kind of tale would it be if it were easy? Honestly, would it be worth it if you didn’t have to fight for it? Would accomplishing your dreams still hold the same value if they were easily attainable? 

Fear fills in the pages of our story, and it gives our journey depth and meaning. So, instead of running from it, we face it. We recognize it, and get to know it a little better. We acknowledge it’s existence and dissect it’s meaning. Then, we take it head on, and we go after what we want, regardless of how much it frightens us. We reject the negative thoughts fear try’s to feed us, and we create our own story as we move forward into our own journey. We take one step closer to getting what we want, and we become unstoppable. 

Do you have the courage?

Do I have the courage?

Stay tuned for the journey…

Many reasons NOT to forgive….

photoI readily admit that there is a moral imperative to forgive; it is clear that forgiveness can be a powerful force of healing and reconciliation.

However, I must speak out when the advice from blogs, articles, books, and spiritual one-liners treats forgiveness as a panacea for hurt, pain, and “moving on” to a happier life—with nary a thought given to the many situations, people, and stages of injury where this counsel is not helpful. Worse, much of the counsel is downright offensive, suggesting that if we can’t forgive we are dwelling on the past, focusing on negative emotions, holding on to grudges, filled with retribution and revenge, addicted to adrenaline, marrying our victimhood, recoiling in self-protection rather than mercy, or poisoning ourselves with non-forgiveness.

These assumptions and judgments not only dismiss the real pain many people suffer; they discourage intelligent analysis of the traumas many people and groups experience. Further, the attitude behind these statements can shame people, making them think that something is wrong with going through a natural process of healing after injury or betrayal where forgiveness may not be the first (or second or third) step. The truth is that many people don’t forgive because it is not time to forgive—and taking the time to proceed at their own pace can be empowering, intelligent, and worthy. Simply put, it is alarming how un-psychological many psychologists can be; forgiveness is not the best medicine for all people all the time.

In fact, it may even make a person sick.

One person I spoke with echoed the thoughts of many: “When I was at my most precarious in my attachment to this life, I knew my new therapist was a keeper when I began to reveal the true history of what had been done to me, and she did NOT speak of forgiveness.”

 Reasons Not to Forgive (Yet)

1. Urging forgiveness ignores the fact that anger naturally rises after being hurt and often needs to be integrated, not rooted out like some bacteria-borne illness.

Despite popular misconceptions, anger has a raw power in it that can be integrated—a power that can help a person stand up for themselves, make future injury less likely, and build a sense of empowerment and self-confidence. In fact, research shows that forgiving too readily can erode self-respect and lead to greater relationship problems and partners that are more disagreeable. The point is that claiming some of our anger can be healing and productive.

Listen to the compelling voice of one woman: “I have walked away from the Big Forgive in my life. Every time I saw some version of that sermon—’Forgive in order to heal!’ or ‘You’re only hurting yourself if you don’t forgive!’—I debated what it meant for the family member who sexually abused me. I finally said, ‘Screw it.’ Sometimes I’m angry; sometimes I’m at peace.”

2. Encouraging people to let go of anger before the natural course of its process is suppressive and harmful.

When anger or revenge is suppressed, it gets internalized. What’s so bad about that? Internalized anger often shows up as powerful, painful, even crippling inner-criticism adding salt to the very wound we hope to heal. Additionally, suppressed anger can lead to depression, relationship difficulties, and a myriad of health problems including high blood pressure, heart problems, headaches, digestive problems, and more.

3. Counseling people to forgive when an injury is still recent risks dismissing the pain people are going through.

It may seem obvious that telling a person to forgive too quickly can be insensitive. However, not everyone gets it. I have worked with many people injured by a spouse or as a child who are told just that. The truth is, people have their own way of dealing with being hurt or betrayed and their timing differs depending on the severity of the injury, their natural process, and the reactions of others with whom they share their pain. Promoting forgiveness without sensitivity to these details is not helpful; in fact, it can be hurtful and shaming. When is an injury “still recent?” Sometimes days, sometimes months, sometimes years.

4. Advising forgiveness can ignore the value of confronting an offender.

What if I told you that forgiving too readily makes it more likely that those who hurt you will hurt you again? This is exactly what professor James K. McNulty found—that partners who forgave their partners easily were almost twice as likely to be mistreated soon afterward.

Further, confronting your offender may not only make your life better, it can also make the world safer for others. Simply put, bullying, abuse, assault, and discrimination can be abated, although not eliminated, by confrontation.

One person I spoke with said: “Even at a very basic level, calling someone out on what they did to hurt others, is one way to make those changes. So many injustices happen because no one says anything about them.”

5. The appropriateness of advising forgiveness depends upon who is asking whom to forgive.

Here’s a no-brainer: An abuser who tells a victim to forgive and let go may not have the victim’s best interest at heart. But this is exactly what happens in many cases. Going further, if the person counseling forgiveness has an emotional, financial, or sympathetic connection with the one who injured you, then there is a good reason to hesitate before trusting this counsel. This could be one parent suggesting you forgive the other, a religious institution suggesting you forgive the clergy, a politician who would like to “move on,” a friend who fails to make real amends or redress, or simply a person who can relate more to the injurer than to you. Essentially, where conflicts of interest are present, beware and slow down before trying to forgive.

6. Advising forgiveness, or letting go, to groups of people who have suffered sustained injustice is often ignorant and highly suspect.

Post after post and article after article preaches forgiveness while failing to address the injuries created by sustained social prejudice and marginalization. Instead of addressing these ills, forgiveness is discussed as if it were only an individual process—one person forgiving another. In a way, conventional thinking about forgiveness ignores some of the most profound injuries of our time, rendering this advice ignorant and even complicit with regard to the history of race, gender, and other issues of diversity:

  • First, it ignores the great strides have been made by women, African-Americans, homosexuals, the disabled, and other marginalized groups by people who took the seed of their vengeance and anger and turned it into social action. They didn’t only practice letting go. They harnessed their rage, vengeance, and anger to lift their arms and voices for the benefit of many—and the development of America’s democratic project.
  • Second, it ignores the fact that powerful prejudices still exist making these injuries not just a thing of the past. Shall we forgive an abuser in the middle of their abusive act?
  • Finally, this counsel often comes from people or groups who either have more social power, or a vested interest in not having to look in the mirror at their culpability or redressing the ills many have suffered. It leads one to ask: Are these articles written by people who are out of touch with the history of perpetration over generations that others have to bear—a history that is still living today? Are they secretly, however unconsciously, hoping to absolve their guilt without redress? Clearly, we can’t be outraged by racism in Ferguson and then promote forgiveness and letting go as the only door to healing injury and injustice. Liam Grier and Price Cobbs highlighted this problem in their seminal work, Black Rage, declaring, “The gravest danger we see is that unscrupulous people may use psychotherapy with blacks as a means of social control, to persuade the patient to be satisfied with his lot.”

Forgiveness can be sweet and healing; that’s no lie. But please, before counseling forgiveness, take heed of the power and diversity of injuries as well as the nature of the person or group you are counseling. If we counsel forgiveness as a general practice, we turn a blind eye to so many—a blind eye that may put salt on wounds or add a layer of shame for those whom forgiveness is not the next step.

 

 

 

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