Heartbreak is powerful. I didn’t know how powerful it was until I actually gave the entirety of my heart to someone several months ago and in the process getting severely depressed over it.
Everyone has told me to get over him, move on. If heartbreak ever allowed it to be THAT simple. Someone, please do elaborate on how to just shut all emotion off after falling for someone. I’ll await an answer because that would be magic.
However, despite everything, I think I’m doing better. Seeing a picture of him doesn’t hurt as much as it used to. Maybe I’m numb, maybe I’m truly healing. Post-heartbreak, post-breakup recovery is a process and I totally underestimated it. I used to be one of those people who saw those grieving after a breakup and scoffed thinking it would be easy to get through. I was wrong. Now that I’ve been on the receiving end, I know how it feels to question your worth after breaking up with someone. Finding your pieces, and putting yourself together again, albeit a different, better, more mature version of yourself.
Without him, well, I am still me, but learning from my brief fling with him, I learned to not give too much of myself away at first and I also learned how to be more confident in myself and what I want.
I know I can do better. I know I can. I’ve gotten through this heartbreak. I think I can go another round in the future, much wiser a man, and much more knowledgeable in what I want in someone…
So, in essence, for those struggling through current heartbreak, keep at it, don’t give up healing and going through the messy process. Because after a breakup, I think no matter how severe it may be, it DOES get MESSY.
We’ll all be alright. I can promise y’all that.